Fabulously Fun Mom: ..then there was silence

Fabulously Fun Mom: ..then there was silence: Well back to the Dr. I went yesterday..{check up on my lab results} and when I got there Patty, my nurse let me know we were going to liste...

..then there was silence

Well back to the Dr. I went yesterday..{check up on my lab results} and when I got there Patty, my nurse let me know we were going to listen to the heartbeat on the doppler. "At 11 weeks we should be able to hear it" she said.  As I laid there, the cold gel rubbing on my belly, listening as closely as I could...{silence}...{nothing}...{my heart breaking}.. Patty assured me that it still might be early and we would check again after Dr. Harston went and did the procedure I had come for. 

  I couldn't relax..fear gripped me...I went back..April 2008..

               {Laying on the table, the first day I was not sick in a long time, and I would get to hear my babies heartbeat.. my first child... as the nurse searched...nothing.. silence.. "It's ok!" she said enthusiastically, "We sometimes can't hear this early, but I know everything is fine"...but it wasn't 3 weeks later I was starring at the lifeless body of my baby on a monitor... no heartbeat}

    After the procedure was over Patty quickly told Dr. Harston she was getting the "old ultrasound" machine from the closet..."the one with the crack".  She wheeled it in, plugged it up (crack and all) and proceeded to get prepared to do an ultrasound.. Andrew was not there, and I wasn't sure I could handle what was about to happen.  Tears filled my eyes as I started to see the outline of the baby on the screen and then....

         {flicker, flicker, flicker, flicker, flicker, flicker, flicker...a heartbeat}

A beautiful, strong, heartbeat.

My baby was ok!

 I could not hold it in...tears burned down my checks...it was ok.... Patty even jiggled my stomach a little..to get the baby moving... (looked a lot like break dancing).. I then held my fresh new picture..

  It's funny how God answers prayer..I laid there praying during the procedure for God to intercede and give me strength. I prayed for wisdom and guidance on how to tell Andrew.. but God had bigger plans.  I know whatever the outcome, God would have given me everything I needed...instead he gave me a "what seemed broken", cracked ultrasound machine, an AMAZING compassionate nurse who felt my pain, and went above and beyond to ease my fears, and a blessing inside growing stronger each day!

OK a little comparison...

On June 5th we go for another ultra sound, and were told "interesting things will be going on in this one, so you both better come"... AKA we could possible find out if we are having another little girl, or the first grandson on either side..  This got me thinking... what are the differences between pregnancies, and does the theory that 2 totally different pregnancies mean different genders...

Lilly Drew

* Sick only in the mornings until about lunch time

*Craved sweets: chocolate, ice cream, candy

* Starting showing at about 12 weeks

* Craved regular soda: Mountain Dew and Pepsi 

*Couldn't stomach water

*Wanted to sleep on my left side

* Back pains early on

*Cramping

Baby # Two

* Sick in the mornings and in the evenings

* Craving salty snacks: chips, crackers, trail mix

*Started showing at 10 weeks

* Can't stand soda!!

* Drinking water non stop, and milk!

*Want to sleep on my right side

* Back pains 

*Cramping

Now based on everything above we only have 2 things in common: Back pains (I had back labor with Lilly) and cramping (Which I think is pretty normal).  We will not know the sex of the baby for several weeks {unless by chance the baby gives us a "peep" show on June 5} but I thought it would be fun to see what you guys though! 

                                                                  

                       

11 weeks..and I'm losing my mind, and my stomach..

 Sorry I have been behind MIA on my blogging, but I am telling you, this little "fig" is giving me a run for my money... Morning and Evening sickness, food aversions to things like Aldi, cheese, and any type of meat, and no AC in the house has caused this "MAMA" to lose her cool..literally. 
  Needless to say I am losing my mind... for instance, I have forgotten about meetings, birthdays {including my own}, car keys, cell phone, pictures..only to name a few.... I have even wore my underwear inside out twice... {and not on purpose}, and I have an obsession with diet sodas! {Don't freak out} I am not drinking them, but I do dream about them, stalk the aisle at the grocery, pick one up on occasion just to hold it....this is serious!

I seriously feel like this monkey!

   I never drank diet sodas until I met my hubby Andrew who had always drank diet.  I started buying them to please him..and feel in love... yes with Andrew but with the sodas as well.. Once we were married that is all we bought.  With Lilly I can remember that I drank regular sodas {only one can a day so no overload on caffeine} with no problems, but for some reason with this one, I can not stomach them.  They are entirely to sweet for me, and it seems like I am drinking straight syrup! *I know I am losing it.. but that's not all...my hubby continues to drink the diet sodas {in front of me no less} which then causes my mouth to salivate, my eyes to bug out, and a gut reaction to slap it right out of his hands...{I haven't taken that step yet, but hormones can only hold off for so long}.

Now to the next thing I am losing.. my stomach

   I say this figuratively and literally! With the morning sickness {right when I get up-11:00 am} and the evening sickness {5:00pm-when I go to bed}, eating can be a challenge.  I am snacking grazing, throughout the day on veggies, fruits, nuts, and dried cereal, which wouldn't make you think "sick" or "fatty" but it has happened.. I at times lose my snacks {only 3 times} and I am losing my stomach.... 

     I worked really hard after having Lilly to get back into shape, even getting down smaller than my high school weight.  I was really proud of it, and worked to maintain it.  Before getting pregnant, I knew this would be a HUGE struggle for me...when the time came to "pack on the pounds" I was nervous on how I would react.  Well I had been told my a hundred hundreds thousands of people that on your second pregnancy you will "show" sooner, and if you start out smaller, it will be worse... well it has happened... Last week I had a student say, "Hey, it looks like you have a baby in your tummy" {the joys of teaching 2nd grade}... out at the buses a teacher asked "Hey are you eating for 2?" It had happened... I knew my pants were getting "snug"..but really?

      So I went to GAP to get me some comfy pants..well my good old reliable loose 2's were no longer loose, and yet the 4's were "crotch sagging".. I headed around the corner to Motherhood {Where I told them I was 14 weeks pregnant...don't judge, I had just ate some fries and looked every bit of 14 weeks} but "lo and behold" when I put on the small pants, they were huge {I  don't think the belly band should go above the breast}... what's a girl to do?!

     So stay tuned as I continue to "rig up" my pants with hair ties, and hide this bump for another 2 weeks until the last week of school... Until then, help a sister out...what should I do about my in- between clothing problems?