Here we go again...

If you have been following my blog, or have read previous post you now know I am expecting my 2nd child and we just found out.  You might also know that I have been pregnant twice before this.   Once with my beautiful, now 2 year old daughter Lilly Drew, and once before her with my first child.  At about 15 weeks into my first pregnancy we went to the Dr. to see the heartbeat, and to learn the sex of the baby, only to find out there was no heartbeat, and I would need to be scheduled for surgery the next day to "remove" the fetus  My Baby.
So here we are again, in the early stages of pregnancy and it is time to call the Doctor.  The one thing that causes more fear and dread than anything I have ever done.  Even when  I was 8 months pregnant with a healthy baby Lilly, I would break out in sweats when I had to go to the Doctor. 

It is sad to say, but during the last week of me knowing I am pregnant I have been very "cautiously" happy.  Waiting at any moment for my "bubble to burst". Analyzing every cramp, headache, moment without nausea.

A little back story:  Andrew and I had been trying for this little one for about 4 months.  I have not been on preventatives {birth control} for over a year due to health reasons. We thought this whole conception thing should be easy breezy right? No..every month was another disappointment... then the doubt began. Was I unable to conceive?  I finally gave it all to God last month, and now look...we got the news we have been waiting on...but I am still doubting...

Why is it when I finally got the answer I want, I still find something to worry about.  I am determined to give this pregnancy TOTALLY to God.  You are with me on this journey, whatever his will may be I am here to live and learn.

Possible Week: 5
Symptoms so far:
* Bloated
* Nausea in the mornings, in between meals, and after dinner
* Constant bathroom breaks: like every 15 minutes
* Restlessness at night {see above}
* Extremely tired {which has been great while on Spring Break}

Cravings:
* Taco Bell nacho Cheese with Bojangles seasoned fries
* Celery
* Salad